I did not kill the doctor I spoke to today. Despite clearly stating why I wanted to see one of their doctors (and despite a website that claims they have chronic pain folks), I was basically told that not only could she not help me, her "holistic approach" involves taking away all of my meds because they're atypical/pain meds/unnecessary meds, etcetera.

My fury still simmers. What you are calling a holistic approach, isn't.